Wednesday, September 28, 2005
end up keep repeating number 7.. haha.. shall not write a whole list of songs.. hmmm.. well.. guess i dunno wad is wrong wif me... Aiya duno wad to write oso... Dun feel like talking, debating, explaining, coaxing, assuring, defending... I know i m plain lazy and probably tired.. from what? i dunno.. just feel like giving up everything and back to dis small world of my own comfort zone... dis is e best ba.. no responsibilities.. no nid scared dis n dat, no nid to answer to any doubts, no nid promise, no nid to put myself in e front line battling to withhold e title of "I m a gd boy, gd son, gd bf, gd fren etc etc.." and to defy all the doubts & elements that threat wad i wanna portray.. i dun feel a nid to portray any more.. just be me.. that i think i m right can already.. the me that hates to not bathe, the me that hates quarrels, the me that simply didnt bother wad pple thinks of me... I think i m very protective over myself too ba.. i dun wanna have something very unpredictable wif me that says "handle with care".. i rather give up.. its not i choose to give up.. well.. they gave up on the family didnt they? he gave up on me, she have no choice, wad else? I dun belong to any where.. i m myself.. me... hope no one can ever intrude so there isnt any more of this pain.. figuring out myself and reflecting.. and am i really tired? i've been doing nth, not working.. having holidays.. Guess having too much time alone is not gd.. What is dis familiar feeling? Certainly done reflecting.. somethings r better left unsaid and some let time tell.. and some.. just forget it.. I've choosen to let time pass ba... how bout urs? To forgive and forget - thats the best option.. To only forgive - No point if u cant forget To only forget & dun forgive - its best though..hatred makes u move on better To not forgive & forget - thats not gd..
He's Gone
[Wednesday, September 28, 2005]
-cOpyriGht-
dead
and gone